I know… it’s been a while. Soz.
As you know, I was in Dubai for a week for my 18th birthday. What an amazing week that was!
Back to reality with a bump. 24 hours before jetting off, I was back in the trialling arena, with the hope to continue in the Lighting NPL squad. Fast forward to the day of the flight and I received the email to say…
Before I give you the answer, I have learned a lot about myself these past few weeks. Being able to reflect upon the choice made by the selectors has enabled me to focus on what is important right now. In reality, the choices made by others somehow feeds into what I now prioritise for myself and my future, (which will always include netball. You can’t get rid of me that easily!)
Although the news is not what I hoped for, I am still very much part of Loughborough Lighting with being in the U19 academy. I was so close and it was down to the last game. Any netballer that faces rejection, it can feel like your world has come crashing down. Trust me, I did shed a few tears. But the reality is, it is such an important academic year for me and my final A level exams will soon be here. Being able to readdress the balance between work load and netball is a weight lifted off my shoulders and I feel like I can actually breathe a little more easily. Don’t get me wrong, I am still 100% committed to reach my goal and put all my effort into my training until the next trial comes around, (NPL Summer 2019, I’m coming for you.)
So this choice made by the selectors has given me a direction and I finally now know what I want to study at degree level. After visiting Northampton University yesterday, my choice has now become more clear. Multimedia Journalism and/ or creative writing is what I am striving to achieve in the future. My blogs had an input into my desire to write but this visit cemented my decision. I want to be able to learn how to report on current affairs, write articles, continue blogging and discover the wider world of what a writer actually encounters.
So for any of you who feel at a loss by the decision making of others, remember this: you are in charge of your own destiny, and some decisions have a way of making you see what’s important. Keep chasing your dreams, because I know I will.